What the future holds?

What the future holds? What my life gonna look like in the future? Who's I'm gonna end up with in the future? Will I be happy in the future?

I don't know what my future gonna look like. But of course I want to have my own house, my own car, my own money, a very good job and my own in everything. And I also know by saying " I want this and that for my future " will never help me to fulfill what I want for future so I have to work really hard for it and I hope God will help me through everything for a better future.

Who am I gonna end up with in my future? I don't about that too. Maybe with the one I'm currently dating now? Hehe. But who knows right? If he is the one then I'll be the most happiest and luckiest girl alive, thankyou God but if he isn't then I'll accept that too. God have another plan for me I guess. Either way, I think I'll be okay.

Will I be happy in the future? That? Only God knows. I'm happy now and I don't any reason why I shouldn't be happy. I'm happy with my life, I'm happy with my family, I'm happy with him and I'm happy with my friends. Problem? I'll make it through it. Whatever problem I have, there always a way.

Memo that she wrote while thinking of her cuzzy..

Dear Cuzzy, 

Hello hello hey. i am so lucky coz i have you around. when i was form 3 sitting my PMR exam, you are there  give me strong. talk to me before enter the examination hall. when i answer the paper you are always in my mind among the important people in my heart. when i am down, here you are again smiling at me and everything gonna be okay and i believe all that you had said to me, even though you will say that the moon are square, i am sure i will believe it. when i failed my examination, you say that you are proud of me, don't you know how happy i am. when i read your online diary on 19 July 2011. i am on the list of the girl you love. you can't imagine how was i smiling like silly girl. truly from my heart you are the best cousin ever in my life, heart and mind. love you much much and i pray to God that you will always and have a blessed life.

Seriously, bila dapat memo ni dari dia terus rasa terharu ni. hehe. She really make my day ohh! confirm tido ni mimpi indah terus. iloveyouuumuchhmuchh dear cuzzy Ojie! and me too really blessed to have you as my sweet cuzzy. Loveyouumuchhmuchhmore :*

Them..

I  miss them like so much! i wish i can see them now, spending fun time with my family and my gorgeous bff,  gaduh dengan mysibling, sharing everything with them and helping my parents.. ohhh! how i really wish masabergerak dengan cepat sekali so i can finish my study and aku bole balik dekat Sabah :') ? hmm. 

Dear god, buatkan mereka lebih gembira, sihat dan senang. Bless them wherever they are. I'm counting on you. Amen :')

#PrayForSabah

Teringin sangat mau pulang Sabah but my mom and dad tidak bagi :( I really really hope things will go back to before where no war happen in Sabah. Like everyday, i will call my family to check on them. They ask me not to worries to much but whenever i open TV, phone, internet, whatsapp.. all i can see is those news. What those people really want exactly?

If only this thing don't effect the Sabahan citizen. Hmmm! Really need " Captain Malaysia " here. All i can do is pray to God agar benda ini akan berakhir dengan cepat, keadaan menjadi seperti sebelum ini dan may God bless all Sabah citizen. Amin :(

at 3:00 am

Still i'm not sleepy . haihh ! ini semua salah adik aku c nobina ni , dah tahu aku dah lelap pastu nak kejut bagai ! rupanya dia minta teman pegi dapur sebab nak makan , nasib baik aku lapar . LOL ! Disini aku nak cakap " Thanks to sandakan my hometown sebab berjaya menaikan berat badan ku " Saya sangat gembira . haha ! well , its been 2 days i'm here , i have such a great time with my family and hanging out with my friend , they make me happy and its fun here . Anything ? hmmm . Now i will force my self to sleep sebab esok kena bangun awal lagi . ada plan ! wewooott ! okay guys , have a great life and enjoy . goodmidnite ! muahhhhh :*

Hello :D

hello sayang :D opps ! hello bloggie . hehe . lama tak update blog kan ? hehe . aku sihat , kamu ? :D hehehe .

Now dekat umah bestie ! yeahh ! rindu dekat diaa ohh c FAEZAH nii or i call FAFA ! sekarang spend time together sambil karok dengan her sister then tggu dia masak . hehe . dia pandai masak , me tak berapa pandai ohh :/ hehe .

Yesterday , mother day's punya sambutan , tersangat lah best ! keluar smpi tgh malam , feel like remaja balik . hahaha :) kumpul dengan family semua , bergurau & snapping semua . wahhh ! super duper memgumbirakan :D

hehehe .

well its been happy day for me , tomorrow my mom and dad pegi kk . wish dalam perjalanan diorang , diorang selamat smpi dan selamat balik . amin :D Take care mamykuuu & dadyykuu :) will always pray for you . muahh :*

CONVO !

The moment i've been waiting is here ! on 14 april 2012 :) thanks a lot to my parents even they are not there to watch me having my diploma convo , but they always here in my heart and i do really thanks them for giving me so much support for all this time . this diploma is for them ! ILOVEYOU MAMA & PAPA KUU , i've finally done something that really make you proud kann :) so muchh love for them :*

klinik -,- ?

helloo semua , pretty boys & handsome girls ? hehe . sihat ? aku kurang lahh :P hehe , today pegi klinik , mamy force me to go sbb sakit lerr , sakit apa ? rahsiaaaaaa . hehehe . my mom cakap badan aku panas , rasanya mcm tak jaa . haih -,- ? tak pa lah demi mamyykuu . hehehe .

pegi sana , ada abg nii tanya macam macam , haih . dia kah mau check or doktor kan ? nasib baik dia bagi discount dekat ubat tuuuu ;) kann ? kat klinik tadi sempat cek ketinggian semua , ketinggian sekarang 160 , rasaa mcm pendek jaa kan ? ciannn nenny :') hehe . tak pa , sebab abg tuu ckp still bole tinggi lagi , betul mehh ? haiyaaaaaa :O

semalam mimpi ngeri :'( TAK SUKA ! now , mengitung hari nak balik KL sebab convo . hmmm , mesti lama , mesti bosann kann ? mesti kena beratur semuaa . cehhhh ! bnyk mesti pulaaaaa . dapat convo pun syukur lahh kann * DALAM HATI * hehe . okay bloggie :) have a nice weekend nite yaaa . muahhhh :* lots of love , nak berehat sebentar bersama bantal kepala pening lerrr ;)

Face ART !

haloo semuaa lihat gambar dekat atas . kucing & nightmare face art ! hahaha . nii lah yang kami lakukan hari ini , malam ini . mama & papa cakap " CUBALAH BUAT SOMETHING YANG BERFAEDAH , NI TAK CONTENG CONTENG MUKA ;( " hahahah , kami pun justt say sorry . hehehe . hehe . having a fun night with them . will remember this moment , thankyou sister , ilovechiuuuuu babyy babyy kuu :* muahhhhhh !

hai kawan kawan !

heloo semua pretty guys & handsome girls . haha ! semua okayy ? good then ;) about today nak cerita sikit . meh dekat dekat ;) today kan pegi memancing , aku dapat pancing smpi 5 ekor ikan , mmg lah ikan kecikk but tak pernah dapat smpi 5 , tuu pasal excited sangat . hahahaha ! tp spoil lah ada budak laki sorang nii , mana aku pegi , dia nak ikut , tau lah pancing kau tuu panjanggg sngt , pancing aku katek abis tp still bole dpt ikan biarpun kena tggu lama . haihhh -,- ! btw nak cakap dear lebam please GO AWAY ! asal aku pegi memancing jaa , lebam mesti muncul . hmmmm . bengkaka kat tangan pun tak sembuh lagi .

todayy memancing sekali dengan picnik , rasa sangat gumbira bila berpicnik bersama keluarga yang tersayang kan ? dah lama tak picnik sebenarnyaa . cian kann ? -,- ! kemaruk nak picnik agaknya aku nii . hehe . papa punn thanks MAMA , PAPA & my LIL SISTER for making my day one of the happies dayyy todayyy :') hehehe . ILOVEYOUUUUUU . muahhhh :*

okaylahh , tuu jaa nak share sebenarnyaaaaa . hehe . the reason why i'm happy todayyy . awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ! one last thing . i misss my himmmmm , trullyyy :* miss youuuu sayangggggkuu BEBE :* , okayy bloggie , muahh & goodnite !

MERAPU ******************** !!!

halooo semua ? how are you ? baik ? sihat ? walafiat ? hmm . dah start dah merapu aku . post kita *****MERAPUU****** tak tahu nak buat apa , sekarang tengah hujan pula . apa lahhh ! apa yang patut dilakukan nii ? rasanya aku dah menguap 1000x tapi masih blm nak tido jugaa ? knp lah kau mata , apa kes kau ni pula . haih ! dada ni pula nak buat kita sakit . hmm . hingus dah start nak meleleh . haih ! perlukah aku bagi tahu . hahaha . Kilikness is happen :')

apelah aku nak buat nii . hmm. better ajak mama men sugal , yeahhh . tapi kena tunggu dia abis masak dulu lahh , adik aku semua tido . malas nak kacau lahhh -,- ! sekarang nak cari part time pun susah , kalau pegi dekat KK , mesti ada . tp apa bole buat , aku pun tak nak jauh dr parents & sibling aku . haaaa ! so kena lah cari kerja kat sandakan ni saja .

semalam aku bole mimpi pula tentang family BF aku adek dia , ibu dia , abah and cuzzy dia semua ? hmmm -,- aku heran dan pelik lah , napa ehh ? masih tertanya tanya lagi nii . hmmm , sabar jaa lah smpi aku dapat jawapan dia . naaaah ! kann ? beside sabar itu separuh dari iman :) sekarang nak mamam ice cream memandangkan dah tak da keja len .

now nak layan CLEVERBOT jap ! bila bosan ni lah yang rajin layan aku . hmmm -,- ! chaalooooooooooo , alohaa ! see you on next post . haha . take care bloggie , lots of love , muahhhh :D

one week !

hello boys and girls :D how are you ? good , okayy ? hee . saja tanya . hewhew :D its been a week since i got back from KL and sepanjang seminggu dekat sini , most of the time aku duk umah , melayan karenah adek bongsu aku yang nakal lagi manja and lagi comel ini . hehe . kawan bnyk ajak kuar tp ntah lah , bukan tak nak kuar tapi relax lah kan , aku tak ke mana pun , aku kat sini juga smpi bulan 4 , tp ntah lah dah mcm tak puas hati jaa . malas lah nak fikir . hehe . if they happy then i'm happy too kan ? yeahh !

semalam pegi futsal temankann adek , dalam team dia ade 2 org jer pompuan but guess what diorang menang . yeahh ! salute youu my adek . mehh muahh muahh :* hee . then after that pegi karok jap , stayy baru balik :)

dan yang sebenarnyaaa saya rinduuu dekat org tuuuuuu lahhh . hehehehhehe :D tuu jaaa , okayy guyss , have a great life . muahhh , lots of love :*

hello sandakan !

hello 19th february 2012 , im backkkk ! haha , maksud dia back dekat kmpg halaman aku , sabah ! naik flight kul 9.40 so kena bangun kul 5 sbb uncle dtg nak ambik kul 6 pagi . pastu smpi sabah kul 12.20 pm , mmg penat gila and ngantok sngt ! tapi semua tuu hilang bila aku nmpk mama , papa and adik adik dekat tmpt pertibaan , yehhh .

then aku pun dibawa ke kedai mamam pastuu balik then jap after that papa bawa pegi memancingg . fuhhh ! lamanya memancingg . penatt lahhhhh . hehe . ngantokkkkk lagi tapi tak pa dapat juga fun dia tuu , rasa seronok .

ohyaa , rindu kat budakkkk dekat KL tuu . my bebe , rinduu dekat diaa lahh . hmmm , babyykuu kat sana , jaga diri baik baik yaaa and jgn naughty naughty ! bb here will miss you so muchh and alwayss love youuu , muahhhh :')

Birthday ! thanks MOM DAD :)

Today is the day . HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :) Hahaha . but actually i dedicated this day to my mom and dad, because without them i won't be here ! Mom && Dad thanks for giving me a chance to explore this world , with all your both love , patient , your hard time in this 20 years , i will make sure and promise that your life will be better and more better and more happily , okayyy :')

MOM && DAD ! i really appreciated what your done to me for all this year :) your are my everything and i promise , no matter what happen you will never be replace and my love for you will never ends :') ohhyaa , my birthday actually on 17 DEC ! :')

SEDIH :')

hey readers , boys and girls ?

TODAY , sedihh sangat okayy , rasanya mcm sekejap jaa jumpa my twins sis tuu :')

blm puas lagi nak bergumbira bersama diorang . selama diorang dekat sini rasa mcm

dekat tempat sendir jaaa . babyyy bita and babyy bina , take care okay , jangan nakal

nakal dekat PLKN tuuu . ME ALWAYS MISS and LOVE YOU and ALWAYS PRAY

for your both healthy and happiness :')

P/S : I LOVE YOU GUYS ! UWAAAAAAAA :'(

gendut gendut :')

todayyy , happy sangat dapat jumpa c gendut gendut aku :')

which is my babyy sis yg masok PLKN . yeahhhhhh !

tadi pagi bngn kul 5.30pg sbb nak catch up masa jer nak jumpa diorang

tp berbaloi sbb dapat jugaa && rasa rindu ni terubat sikit . hahahahaha .

okayylahh , kami p sembahyang sama sama , dapat borak borak :)

dapat gurau gurau lagi && dapat peluk peluk lagiii . hehehehe . nanti bila

diorang cuti dapat jumpa diorang lagi . hhehehehehe :D

P/S : kamu jaga diri yaaa , jgn nakal nakal && jaga kesihatan selaluu :D

will see both of youu soon okayyyy baby ?

IMISSYOU && ILOVEYOU :')

TODAY : 02th OCTOBER 2011

GOPPY kuuuu :'(

aku baru saja tauu dr FB , aunty aku post something dekat group family kitorang

yg anjing yg menjaga rumah family aku sudaaa meningalkan kan kami pada hari ini :'(

mmg sngt sedih okayyy , walaupun family aku islam but kitorang bela anjing bukan sbb apa

tp sbb anjing dapat protect rumah family aku tuuu .

anjing tuu nama dia GOPPY :'(

today is his day fly to heaven , hope goppy always happy up there :'(

we down here will always pray for him and always remember that goppy gone left us

a thousand sad , happy , pain memoryyyy . for us goppy is a part of our family .

P/S to GOPPY : goppy , semoga happy diatas sana yaaa , kami semua sedih ko tgglkan kami

awal mcm nii , yg ada disisi ko cuma juaana && julia saja kann time tuu :'(

kami rasa mcm mau balik sabah jaa tgk ko tp , ummmmmmmm .

aku mmg sedih tp aku x mau nangis sbb my aunty pernah ckp klu kita nangis atas pemergian

seorang tuu , pasti roh dia pun akan turut menangis , sy tak mauuu tuu :'(

kami semua SAYANG SANGAT SAMA GOPPY , SANGAT SANGAT !

27 september 2011 is the day he left us :'(

TODAY : 27th SEPTEMBER 2011

♥ NO ONE EVER GONNA REPLACE THEM ♥

♥ MY FANTABULUOS PARENTS ♥

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MAMA && PAPA

♥ TWINS BABY SIS , IMISS KEDEGILAN MEREKA ♥

♥ WE CALL HER BABY KAPONG , MISS COMPLAIN ♥

♥ ME WITH BABY BINA COMEL♥

♥ I DO LOVE HER SO MUCH , BABY KITTY KUU ♥

♥ MY BEAUTIFUL MAMA && SIS ♥

♥ AGAIN , THEM . CUTE WITH BAJU KURUNG ♥

♥ IN CAR , SNAPPING IS THEIR THING . HAHA ♥

♥ BABY KAPONG , IMISS RENGEKKAN DIA ♥

♥ ALOLOLO , SWEET BABY , WANNA HUGS HER ♥



♥ LOTSOFLOVE ♥

FAMILY MEANS PUTTING YOUR ARMS
AROUND EACH OTHER AND
ALWAYS BEING THERE

BEING A FAMILY
MEANS YOU ARE A
PART OF SOMETHING VERY WONDERFUL
IT MEANS YOU WILL
LOVE AND BE LOVED FOR
THE REST OF YOU LIFE
NO MATTER WHAT


P/S : THEY MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME , ILOVEYOU

♥ FAMILY IS THE KEY TO A WONDERFUL LIFE ♥

♥ ANAK ANAK BUAH YG COMEL ♥

♥ MY CRAZY TWINS AUNT , SAYANG KAMU ♥

♥ MY SIS WITH ENSEM CUZZY ♥

♥ NII SAYA DGN JENNO ♥

♥ HAH ! INI ADIK JENNO , CUTE MEHH ♥

♥ HAA , TGK PIC KAT ATAS NII OKAY ♥
GAMBAR NII TIME WEDDING
KAK ONENG SY , SEMUA HAVING
A GOD TIME TAUU :D

♥ NII LAH PENGANTINNYA ♥
SAMA CANTIK , SAMA ENSEM KAN ?
SEPADAN SNGT TAUU :D

♥ SO SWEET GAMBAR NII , ILOVEIT ♥
GAMBAR PRE WED FOR MY UNCLE && HIS WIFE



♥ WONDERFUL FAME ♥
FAMILY ARE THE COMPAS
THAT GUIDE US
THEY ARE THE INSPIRASION



P/S : ENJOY WATCHING MY WONDERFUL FAMILY