And I admit that I'm not suitable or even good in this kind of business. It gives me anxiety, depression and I even laugh at the most un laughable situation and even cry without I notice. I cried my self to sleep every single night when I'm alone.
Did I force my self to still be in the business when I don't even want to? Is that a good thing? For me? For my mental health? The only thing that make me stay is my mom.
The struggle of having to deal with 'some' people with attitudes. With other people chase you about this and that. I'm not strong. I'm tired. I'm mentally tired. I wanna quit so bad but I just can't. I'm this close to give up and there are days that I feel like the only thing I can do for me to get away from all this is to die. That why I can stop from overthinking and people can stop chasing me and they can stop pressing me with business and pressuring me to solve problem, forcing me to find solution and all. All me.
There a thing in this world you just can't do alone. I'm tired. I really do.
