The 'Perks' of being in the family business.

It is not easy. Struggling with the business. Anxiety and depressions comes. 

And I admit that I'm not suitable or even good in this kind of business. It gives me anxiety, depression and I even laugh at the most un laughable situation and even cry without I notice. I cried my self to sleep every single night when I'm alone. 

Did I force my self to still be in the business when I don't even want to? Is that a good thing? For me? For my mental health? The only thing that make me stay is my mom. 

The struggle of having to deal with 'some' people with attitudes. With other people chase you about this and that. I'm not strong. I'm tired. I'm mentally tired. I wanna quit so bad but I just can't. I'm this close to give up and there are days that I feel like the only thing I can do for me to get away from all this is to die. That why I can stop from overthinking and people can stop chasing me and they can stop pressing me with business and pressuring me to solve problem, forcing me to find solution and all. All me. 

There a thing in this world you just can't do alone. I'm tired. I really do. 

So?

 Hi bloggie,

It's my first post for the year of 2021.

So, I got engaged on 28/12/2020. And I'm really happy that finally one step closer to forever with the one I loved. He proposed me on 05/12/2020 on the same spot we became lovers//couple. It was such a surprise event for me because I absolutely had no idea that he's gonna kneel on one knee and ask me to marry him. And I said yes.

I'm so blessed that I have him. And I feel so lucky to be his fiancee. Thank you God for making this happen to me. Thank you mom and dad for happily accepting him into our family. Thank you babe for loving me to the point that I have never imagine that someone could love me that much and thank you for everything. I love you babe, my husband to be.